Monologue from the play "And Turning Stay"
written by Kellie Powell
(Amy enters from the opposite direction and confronts Mark.)
Amy: Does that hurt?
Mark: (not looking at her) Yes.
Amy: Good. (Mark tries to leave. She gets in his face.) Don't you dare walk away from me! And don't tell me you're sorry! And don't tell me to forget it, and don't you dare tell me to "let it go." God knows, I'd like to. I wish I could, but I can't! I can't forget that we had something, and you're running away. You're running away! Don't you see Mark? You're running from what I've searched for all my life! Why, because you're scared? Well, I'm scared too, but I - you and I - that night - you and I, Mark, we have something worth fighting for. We could make it work, I'm not saying it would be easy, but I care about you. And I know deep down, under this (spitting out the word) bravado, you care about me. And that's what it's all about, Mark, don't you get it? It's the human experience, Mark. You can pretend all you want, but you're only lying to yourself. You're running from what some people search for all their lives…From what I've searched for all my life, and…Mark, you're denying the simple and wonderful fact that you are emotional, and vulnerable, and alive.
Mark: I can't do this. It's not you, I just…I just don't have it in me! (He tries to leave.)
Amy: (not letting him get away) Yes, you do! All you have to do is look. Can you honestly stand there and tell me that I mean nothing to you? That everything that happened that night was a lie? That you feel nothing? (Amy is crying or close to it. The following is a painful statement that she makes not to attack or threaten Mark but rather, to allow herself closure with the situation.) I feel sorry for you, Mark. I'll move on. I'll find someone else. I'll be all right, because I will know that I tried. That I did everything I could. But someday you will look back, and you will realize what you threw away. And you will regret it always.
(Mark is speechless, Amy walks away. Mark walks off, as destroyed as Amy has been.)
Kudos and much thanks go to Btesop for this monologue, it is very much appreciated.
The entire script of the play (Microsoft Word file):
http://notmyshoes.net/monologues/ats.doc
Author's E-mail: kellsbells@gmail.com
Author's Website: http://www.notmyshoes.net/nb/