ER
from the TV series created by Michael Crichton
(Visiting his cousin, Carter walks in with a takeout bag and a shake; he sets everything down)
Carter: It's a good thing they didn't frisk me….(offers shake) it's chocolate.
Chase (Jonathan Scarfe): Go away. Carter: There's a reason I didn't come to see you Chase. I thought about coming, but I didn't. And I didn't because I was afraid, and I was afraid because I didn't want to adm…when I got stabbed last year at work, a friend of mine got killed and I um,… ended up addicted to painkillers. And it caught up with me. And I started to...um…shoot Morphine and Demerol and Fentynal and whatever else I could get my hands on. And I don't know what would have happened if I hadn't got busted, but I did and I went to rehab…but I wasn't like any of those people…I mean I got into this because of an injury, because of circumstance, because of a near death experience. And they…It wasn't me, I mean it was me, but it wasn't… anyway, I did the program. I pretended that I bought into it, I did everything I was supposed to do, except believe that I had anything to do with what had happened. And then…I almost relapsed…or I guess, I guess I did relapse. Anyway, I didn't come to see you Chase, because I didn't want to admit to the fact that I was just like you. The truth is,…there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of getting high. It's the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning…and it's the last thing I think of when I go to bed at night. And I think about it all day. (long pause) I'm a drug addict.
Chase: (grunts) You bring any french fries?
Kudos and much thanks go to Kimmy for this monologue, it is very much appreciated.