Donnie Brasco
written by Paul Attanasio, from the book by Joseph D. Pistone & Richard Woodley
Maggie (Anne Heche): God, why do you hate me when I love you so much? Donnie: You think I hate you? I don't hate you. This job is eating me alive, I can't breathe anymore, (beat) and if I come out this guy Lefty dies. They're gonna kill him because he vouched for me because he stood up for me I live with that every day. That's the same thing as if I put the bullet in his head myself, you understand? I spent all these years being the good guy, you know the man in the white fucking hat, for what? (beat) For nothing. I'm not becoming like them Maggie, I am them.
(He walks passed her, stops, turns around to kiss her in the head then to walk away.)
Credit and many thanks to H. H. Musik for this monologue, it is very much appreciated.